Recently I've been camp. And I felt lonely.
I've been with this group of people for close to two years now and I was quite close till someone broke a promise and leaked out my anxiety. But this December I plucked up my courage to join this camp with them so maybe I'd get close again.
But then I was sick and I even had panic attacks during these few days.
When I show it to people I trust (or used to now), they just seem too busy to give a shit. One's always with her boyfriend, the other two always playing, and the other always on his phone. The one who does care is busy too nowadays with camps and all. I feel bad bothering her or talking to her.
Yet when I try to hide it, my best friend, of which I don't even see face to face, can feel my sadness and anxiety. And this bothers me. If someone I don't even see and talk less to recently can feel me, why can't the people of which I am blatantly bothered in front of see it?
